And now I can't sleep anymore.
I thought I was tired, but apparently not.
I keep thinking about everything bad in life.
And my arm can't stop aching, it hurts really bad, or it doesn't exactly hurt, but I get a slight panic because of it.
And no one fun online to talk to, so boring.
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
Wish my allergy wasn't here
Oh my god!
I just wanted to die when I woke up this morning.
First of all I was supertired when I woke up, because of my sleepless night.
Then it seemed like my cough was worse. So I couldn't stop coughing at work.
I really need to get some medecin for it, because it's killing me.
Then I did the close at Cojean, just another reason to die.
Then I went to go to see a studio in the 9th by M° Saint George, a super nice area.
I arrived and saw 3 other people waiting outside, we went up the stairs to see the room, while the landlord came down the stairs to say that he was about to leave, and that we came too late. Hold on a minute! You had clearly indicated on your answering machine that the visit was gonna be between 19:00 and 19:30!!!
But then he said that he was gonna have another visit tomorrow, the same hours.
So forget it, I'm not gonna stress there again to see him leave. He also said that I will need a garant, and most of the cases the garant has to live in Paris, which is a bit impossible in my case.
Looking for a plcae in Paris is just another reason why I wanna die, Again.
I just wanted to die when I woke up this morning.
First of all I was supertired when I woke up, because of my sleepless night.
Then it seemed like my cough was worse. So I couldn't stop coughing at work.
I really need to get some medecin for it, because it's killing me.
Then I did the close at Cojean, just another reason to die.
Then I went to go to see a studio in the 9th by M° Saint George, a super nice area.
I arrived and saw 3 other people waiting outside, we went up the stairs to see the room, while the landlord came down the stairs to say that he was about to leave, and that we came too late. Hold on a minute! You had clearly indicated on your answering machine that the visit was gonna be between 19:00 and 19:30!!!
But then he said that he was gonna have another visit tomorrow, the same hours.
So forget it, I'm not gonna stress there again to see him leave. He also said that I will need a garant, and most of the cases the garant has to live in Paris, which is a bit impossible in my case.
Looking for a plcae in Paris is just another reason why I wanna die, Again.
scared
I don't know what it is. But I always hear something running around on the roof night time, and it's only during night time. It's kind of creepy.
I can't sleep because I went to bed pretty early and now I'm lying sleepless, and it's really hot, or it's just me having a fever.
I really don't feel like closing tomorrow, I don't know why I always have to close, probably because I'm too slow in the kitchen in the morning. I know I am, but I guess it's better to do the close then working with Chanez every morning. Chanez is this 40 something year old lady that doesn't really fit in at Cojean, that's probably why they always put her in the kitchen. A depressiv lebanese lady who is kind of crazy and always seems to yell at people. She went off at one of the managers one morning about her never been this depressing in her life because she always did the same thing, while everyone else get to change tasks, and it was the first time in her 40 year old life she had had to go to a shrink.
So Thibault (the director of Cojean Madeleine) let her work in the juicebar once, when everything kind of slowed down. And that was it, now she is still in the kitchen all the time. I felt sorry for the person who was with her in the juicebar. It's tiny and hot in there, and having her big "geule" up your face through the rush hour, must be a pain the fucking ass.
I can't sleep because I went to bed pretty early and now I'm lying sleepless, and it's really hot, or it's just me having a fever.
I really don't feel like closing tomorrow, I don't know why I always have to close, probably because I'm too slow in the kitchen in the morning. I know I am, but I guess it's better to do the close then working with Chanez every morning. Chanez is this 40 something year old lady that doesn't really fit in at Cojean, that's probably why they always put her in the kitchen. A depressiv lebanese lady who is kind of crazy and always seems to yell at people. She went off at one of the managers one morning about her never been this depressing in her life because she always did the same thing, while everyone else get to change tasks, and it was the first time in her 40 year old life she had had to go to a shrink.
So Thibault (the director of Cojean Madeleine) let her work in the juicebar once, when everything kind of slowed down. And that was it, now she is still in the kitchen all the time. I felt sorry for the person who was with her in the juicebar. It's tiny and hot in there, and having her big "geule" up your face through the rush hour, must be a pain the fucking ass.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
oh what a great day
This day have turned out pretty good,calm and fun. I went took a capoeira class, which felt great. So happy I went.
Have now eaten.
Marion's boyfriend came yesterday. He seems like a great guy. Marion is so much happier now, which makes it more pleasant around the house.
Have now eaten.
Marion's boyfriend came yesterday. He seems like a great guy. Marion is so much happier now, which makes it more pleasant around the house.
Sunday do's
I love sundays they are calm, and in today's case, sunny, birds singing....and then you start to notice how much you actually have to do. My paperwork seems to never end.
I just wish I was a kid again.
I changed my sheets today because they just smelled sickness.
Last night I woke up in the middle of the night with my eyes itching. Really annoying.
I'm gonna take a capoeira class now, I don't know if I actually should since I'm coughing a lot right now. But I just can't let a week pass without exercising, besides I haven't taken a capoeira class for more than a week and I miss it.
Me and Vincent were thinking about taking a weekend in Marocco, I don't know why I was even considering it, because I have like NO money. I need to go to Sweden twice this summer. Because otherwise no one is gonna be there for Lilian's graduation, and I really need to be there for the wedding.
Maybe I should invite Vincent to come to Sweden. He was thinking about going there anyways.
I wish I had a moment of just realxing with friends in the summer and everything. That I felt relaxed and just enjoyed life. I know how it feels, and those moments comes once in a while, and I know I could feel it today, but I'm not quite there, something is missing.
I feel like moving.
I'm gonna try to visit a room on monday, but the problem is that it's between 19.00 and 19:30 and I'm doing the close on monday, and what I know I'm always late with the close which gonna mean I'm not gonna make it. Which sucks...
And the room is like close to Opera too, so good, and only 349€/month!
I just wish I was a kid again.
I changed my sheets today because they just smelled sickness.
Last night I woke up in the middle of the night with my eyes itching. Really annoying.
I'm gonna take a capoeira class now, I don't know if I actually should since I'm coughing a lot right now. But I just can't let a week pass without exercising, besides I haven't taken a capoeira class for more than a week and I miss it.
Me and Vincent were thinking about taking a weekend in Marocco, I don't know why I was even considering it, because I have like NO money. I need to go to Sweden twice this summer. Because otherwise no one is gonna be there for Lilian's graduation, and I really need to be there for the wedding.
Maybe I should invite Vincent to come to Sweden. He was thinking about going there anyways.
I wish I had a moment of just realxing with friends in the summer and everything. That I felt relaxed and just enjoyed life. I know how it feels, and those moments comes once in a while, and I know I could feel it today, but I'm not quite there, something is missing.
I feel like moving.
I'm gonna try to visit a room on monday, but the problem is that it's between 19.00 and 19:30 and I'm doing the close on monday, and what I know I'm always late with the close which gonna mean I'm not gonna make it. Which sucks...
And the room is like close to Opera too, so good, and only 349€/month!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
just another saturday
I woke up this morning after a weird dream- something about "funnysex" and "ex"...
Which put me in a realy weird mood this morning, and made me work very weird.
I was annoyed by both managers, and couldn't stand the people. They brought their greasy children that made Cojean look like a playground with napkins and pasta partout, MAIS PARTOUT!
I told both Tatu and Vincent
-It's really dirty today...
And they both answered with a sour face:
-It's the children, I hate them...!
Vincent came and picked me up at work, we went shopping, OR window shopping in my case. I didn't see anything I wanted to buy anyways. I saw stuff I could copy and sew by myself, but I'm so over buying clothes for the moment.
I'm getting ready to go to meet up for Baptist's Birthday. I don't think I'll stay long, but I'll at least pass by to say hello, since I'm still a bit sick.
..ooo, I got the invitation for the défilé d'Atelier Chardon Savard the 28th April. I'm so exited!
Which put me in a realy weird mood this morning, and made me work very weird.
I was annoyed by both managers, and couldn't stand the people. They brought their greasy children that made Cojean look like a playground with napkins and pasta partout, MAIS PARTOUT!
I told both Tatu and Vincent
-It's really dirty today...
And they both answered with a sour face:
-It's the children, I hate them...!
Vincent came and picked me up at work, we went shopping, OR window shopping in my case. I didn't see anything I wanted to buy anyways. I saw stuff I could copy and sew by myself, but I'm so over buying clothes for the moment.
I'm getting ready to go to meet up for Baptist's Birthday. I don't think I'll stay long, but I'll at least pass by to say hello, since I'm still a bit sick.
..ooo, I got the invitation for the défilé d'Atelier Chardon Savard the 28th April. I'm so exited!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Going to bed but...
Just needed to write.
I feel the spring comming thru my eyes. They start to itch. It hurts.
So me and Vincent started watching Syriana, that Marion lent me, but it was really hard to follow. We noticed we started talking more about the food in the film, than actually trying to understand the story.
We tried and tried, but did not get it.
So Vincent put in a pizza in the oven and made some salad and we put on Carnet de Voyage, a movie about Che Guevara's travel through south america. It was a great movie, and of course Gael García Bernal was great.
Then Vincent's flatmate made a chocolate cake that started off smelling good, but turned out burned, but it was pretty good anyways. I can eat everything anyways, it doesn't really matter how it tastes, I'll eat it!
Ok, gotta go to bed, start work at 7:30, then V wanted to go comfort shopping. He had some love problems, don't understand why he is making himself suffering by liking this guy that obviously isn't worth it, but I guess that's a part of the nonsense of life.
I'll be back tomorrow, because people keep writing me on msn, and I'm to tired to talk to anyone...:P
I feel the spring comming thru my eyes. They start to itch. It hurts.
So me and Vincent started watching Syriana, that Marion lent me, but it was really hard to follow. We noticed we started talking more about the food in the film, than actually trying to understand the story.
We tried and tried, but did not get it.
So Vincent put in a pizza in the oven and made some salad and we put on Carnet de Voyage, a movie about Che Guevara's travel through south america. It was a great movie, and of course Gael García Bernal was great.
Then Vincent's flatmate made a chocolate cake that started off smelling good, but turned out burned, but it was pretty good anyways. I can eat everything anyways, it doesn't really matter how it tastes, I'll eat it!
Ok, gotta go to bed, start work at 7:30, then V wanted to go comfort shopping. He had some love problems, don't understand why he is making himself suffering by liking this guy that obviously isn't worth it, but I guess that's a part of the nonsense of life.
I'll be back tomorrow, because people keep writing me on msn, and I'm to tired to talk to anyone...:P
Finaly a good massage
Just came home from a good massage from Nathalie. She was great, plus she took 50€ for more than an hour, which is pretty good...:)
The people at Cojean Haussman are having a picnik at Champ de Mars right now, didn't know if I was gonna go or not, but I decided not to. I'm still sick, and don't wanna get sicker.
Just talked to Mum, she is having a b-day party tomorrow, so nice that she is enjoying herself right now.
I'm gonna go over to Vincent and watch a movie and have some pizza, I can just feel the fat growing on my body. I borrowed Syriana from Marion, so we're gonna watch it.
The people at Cojean Haussman are having a picnik at Champ de Mars right now, didn't know if I was gonna go or not, but I decided not to. I'm still sick, and don't wanna get sicker.
Just talked to Mum, she is having a b-day party tomorrow, so nice that she is enjoying herself right now.
I'm gonna go over to Vincent and watch a movie and have some pizza, I can just feel the fat growing on my body. I borrowed Syriana from Marion, so we're gonna watch it.
Sleep
Yay, I finaly managed to sleep thru the night, which makes me feel a bit better. My nose is better, my throat is still a bit "coughy", my neck hurts a tad less.
Have to go be at work by noon, then going to take massage! :)
Have to go be at work by noon, then going to take massage! :)
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Nathalie
Ok, I found a girl, i hope she is serious....she sais she is serious, anyways I wrote her an e-mail, I'm gonna try to call her tomorrow..
Massage
How hard can it be to get a massage in Paris???
It's either suuper expensive or sensual with a happy ending...????
No thank you!
It's either suuper expensive or sensual with a happy ending...????
No thank you!
BABEL
I just saw Babel. It was an amazing movie, tragic, but good, the actors are amazing.
I would love to get a massage soon, I've never walked around so long with such a pain in my neck, it's killing me. But no one here ever takes massages, so I don't know where to go, and all the massages I found on the web are suuper expensive.
I wonder if they have some kind of physiotherapy school in Paris...?
I would love to get a massage soon, I've never walked around so long with such a pain in my neck, it's killing me. But no one here ever takes massages, so I don't know where to go, and all the massages I found on the web are suuper expensive.
I wonder if they have some kind of physiotherapy school in Paris...?
shit...
Woke up 3 hours too late, oh well, gonna call me in sick today. My voice is ruined too, can't speak..
god, give me at least one breath hole :P
I don't know if that's just a coincidence, or if it 's just me or what not. But always when my nose is stuffed it's only in one nostril, and then it changes side, it's never both nostrils at the same time... Is God so kind to give us at least one breathhole? how gentle...
So this will be another sleepless night. I was super tired and went to bed at quarter to ten and thought I would sleep like a baby, then I woke up before the alarm clock and thought it was at least like 5:30 or something closer to wake up time, but NO, it was 00:48, i remember my disappointement so clearly.
So I stayed in bed for a couple of minutes just to try to go back to sleep but didn't really manage to, so I decided to get up and cut some bread from Cojean and put it in the freezer (another breating Cojean moment),and look for my VICKS stick to get my left nostril to open up, but I didn't find it to my disappointement :(
...and now I'm stuck here, it's so rediculous because no one even knows I have this blogg, and no one reads it, so I don't know who I'm writing for...
So this will be another sleepless night. I was super tired and went to bed at quarter to ten and thought I would sleep like a baby, then I woke up before the alarm clock and thought it was at least like 5:30 or something closer to wake up time, but NO, it was 00:48, i remember my disappointement so clearly.
So I stayed in bed for a couple of minutes just to try to go back to sleep but didn't really manage to, so I decided to get up and cut some bread from Cojean and put it in the freezer (another breating Cojean moment),and look for my VICKS stick to get my left nostril to open up, but I didn't find it to my disappointement :(
...and now I'm stuck here, it's so rediculous because no one even knows I have this blogg, and no one reads it, so I don't know who I'm writing for...
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Please someone take me out of this misery
I just feel like I wanna blow my head in 1000 pieces, I hate to have a stuffed nose and not be able to breath.
I think 50% of the staff today were sick...and it's only very pleasant, that we are touching all the food with our hands and serve it to the costumer, that makes Cojean one big SICK ZONE.
I think I've eaten my own weight today. But it's OK, it's been good food. I mean I use to eat a lot but a lot of shit, so it doesn't matter.
I'm gonna take some time to draw now, and maybe try to go to bed early because I have to get up at 6 and be at the studio at 8:00 to clean it, really don't want to but what don't you do to get osme free yoga classes.
I think 50% of the staff today were sick...and it's only very pleasant, that we are touching all the food with our hands and serve it to the costumer, that makes Cojean one big SICK ZONE.
I think I've eaten my own weight today. But it's OK, it's been good food. I mean I use to eat a lot but a lot of shit, so it doesn't matter.
I'm gonna take some time to draw now, and maybe try to go to bed early because I have to get up at 6 and be at the studio at 8:00 to clean it, really don't want to but what don't you do to get osme free yoga classes.
..AND 5 months later!
I've been so bad on keeping this blog alive I should be ashamed :9
So what's been happening since last time I wrote...
Well, Tookie went back to Japan LOL, and now he is in Zurich, and he invited me over, but that will be quite impossible for me to arrange with my very sophisticated job (COJEAN 4-ever :P) So he might come over to Paris again, since he has a week of vacation after his premier and earns so much more money than I do, lol.
I thought it was a joke, when I got my payroll today. For all the life dedication I've done, I've basically breathed Cojean the past 1,5 month. WOW, 1,5 month, and it feels like 1,5 year already...
Well, as everybody that quits says: I love the people. It's true the people are amazing to work with, although sometimes you just wanna smash them in the face with a soupier when they stretch all over your caisse to get a client her cake au fucking chocolat....
So it's 06:42 now, I couldn't continue sleep in because i've got a cold and couldn't breath, so I decided to update my blog.
But I'm afraid of staying in my room for the moment. Yesterday I woke up and had an antfarm in my room, next to my clothes. I jumped out of bed of disgust!
I've never had so many ants around me INDOORS! I basicaly ran to CHampion to try to get some ANTI-ant product, but Champion sucks, it's expensive and their service sucks! DO never do your shopping there! So I went over to Monoprix, which is expensive as well, but at least they were a bit more helpful over there, plus I got what I was looking for. I went straight home. Sprayed my room with that thing, don't even know what its called. But now it's dead ants all over my carpet, and it sucks, because having a wall-to-wall carpet doesn't make it easier to clean, especially not with our sucky vaccum cleaner that just makes horrible sound, but doesn't suck up a single dust.
It's getting eaiser to breath now so I'm gonna try to go back to bed. Besides I wanna look a bit more healthier at work tomorrow, you never know who comes over from another Cojean....:) Uhm, no I'm not talking about a certain person people would think I'm thinking about, in this case Linnea is probably the only one who knows who I'm talking about....OMG, Queen D go back to bed!
So what's been happening since last time I wrote...
Well, Tookie went back to Japan LOL, and now he is in Zurich, and he invited me over, but that will be quite impossible for me to arrange with my very sophisticated job (COJEAN 4-ever :P) So he might come over to Paris again, since he has a week of vacation after his premier and earns so much more money than I do, lol.
I thought it was a joke, when I got my payroll today. For all the life dedication I've done, I've basically breathed Cojean the past 1,5 month. WOW, 1,5 month, and it feels like 1,5 year already...
Well, as everybody that quits says: I love the people. It's true the people are amazing to work with, although sometimes you just wanna smash them in the face with a soupier when they stretch all over your caisse to get a client her cake au fucking chocolat....
So it's 06:42 now, I couldn't continue sleep in because i've got a cold and couldn't breath, so I decided to update my blog.
But I'm afraid of staying in my room for the moment. Yesterday I woke up and had an antfarm in my room, next to my clothes. I jumped out of bed of disgust!
I've never had so many ants around me INDOORS! I basicaly ran to CHampion to try to get some ANTI-ant product, but Champion sucks, it's expensive and their service sucks! DO never do your shopping there! So I went over to Monoprix, which is expensive as well, but at least they were a bit more helpful over there, plus I got what I was looking for. I went straight home. Sprayed my room with that thing, don't even know what its called. But now it's dead ants all over my carpet, and it sucks, because having a wall-to-wall carpet doesn't make it easier to clean, especially not with our sucky vaccum cleaner that just makes horrible sound, but doesn't suck up a single dust.
It's getting eaiser to breath now so I'm gonna try to go back to bed. Besides I wanna look a bit more healthier at work tomorrow, you never know who comes over from another Cojean....:) Uhm, no I'm not talking about a certain person people would think I'm thinking about, in this case Linnea is probably the only one who knows who I'm talking about....OMG, Queen D go back to bed!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Last day of Tookies stay...
...and he is still sleeping...by the way, it's 5 pm...
He went out last night and came home 7 am this morning, then he woke up 1pm throwing up after been eating kebb for breakfast...
Not cute...
Anyway, his stay in Paris passed by like the wind, and he is already going home tomorrow. A lot of things has happened while his stay: I won the french championship in Yoga, he got a pretty wellpayed job in Zurich for 3 months in the spring.
And we' re all very happy, all i wanna do now is go home and see my family, eat good food, and just relax.
I've been telling Suyin and Lilian this: But me and Tookie went to Starbucks the other day and I was so happy. So filled with christmas feelings. We had coffée and cheezecake and cookie, while listening to christmas songs, watching people read, looking out the window, and see people with big shoppingbags...aw, how delightful it is...
I don't know why I'm writing this blogg, it's not like anyone reads it...LOL
Anyways I think Tookie should wake up soon, he is sleeping and sleeping and sleeping, he wont be able to wake up tomorrow...
He went out last night and came home 7 am this morning, then he woke up 1pm throwing up after been eating kebb for breakfast...
Not cute...
Anyway, his stay in Paris passed by like the wind, and he is already going home tomorrow. A lot of things has happened while his stay: I won the french championship in Yoga, he got a pretty wellpayed job in Zurich for 3 months in the spring.
And we' re all very happy, all i wanna do now is go home and see my family, eat good food, and just relax.
I've been telling Suyin and Lilian this: But me and Tookie went to Starbucks the other day and I was so happy. So filled with christmas feelings. We had coffée and cheezecake and cookie, while listening to christmas songs, watching people read, looking out the window, and see people with big shoppingbags...aw, how delightful it is...
I don't know why I'm writing this blogg, it's not like anyone reads it...LOL
Anyways I think Tookie should wake up soon, he is sleeping and sleeping and sleeping, he wont be able to wake up tomorrow...
Friday, October 17, 2008
Our new NEUF ADSL box
I woke up this morning, everything was dark, but somehow I strong light was coming from one of the walls in the kitchen, I knew it couldn't have been a lamp, because we don't have a lamp there. So I walked in to the kitchen, trying to find out what it was.
Our NEUFbox!!! It's so beautiful, so we finaly have our fast internet!
It's funny how cute they made the box, I just have to say it. It's white with ALOT of lights coming out of it. I bet it's taking a lot of energy running like that....
Anyways.
Have a good one!
Our NEUFbox!!! It's so beautiful, so we finaly have our fast internet!
It's funny how cute they made the box, I just have to say it. It's white with ALOT of lights coming out of it. I bet it's taking a lot of energy running like that....
Anyways.
Have a good one!
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Living together
The time just flies by. I moved away from family Toutain, moved in to Nyko's place, me and Nyko went to Sweden, Christmas came, we came back to Paris, New Years eve was here, resolutions were given. It's been one and a half week that we've been living together now.
But me and Nyko have been spending 24/7, 2 weeks straight together. I love him dearly but being with one person constant is very difficult for me.
But I guess that's what included in growing up. I already knew I was an independent girl prefering to do everything by myself, used to have my space and time alone, and I knew I was going to have problems in the beginning, but as I have my once-a-month-hormones on the side of all of this I just feel like crying! I even warned Nyko, so he knows. I told him, I might show my hate against him instead of my love, but it's not anything personal. And I'm also worrying about my future, first I wanna finish my french classes, to get my diploma and then start Artschool, next second I wanna continue dancing...I don't know what I'm doing with myself!!!
Whatever I'm doing or saying, Nyko, I LOVE YOU so much!...
But me and Nyko have been spending 24/7, 2 weeks straight together. I love him dearly but being with one person constant is very difficult for me.
But I guess that's what included in growing up. I already knew I was an independent girl prefering to do everything by myself, used to have my space and time alone, and I knew I was going to have problems in the beginning, but as I have my once-a-month-hormones on the side of all of this I just feel like crying! I even warned Nyko, so he knows. I told him, I might show my hate against him instead of my love, but it's not anything personal. And I'm also worrying about my future, first I wanna finish my french classes, to get my diploma and then start Artschool, next second I wanna continue dancing...I don't know what I'm doing with myself!!!
Whatever I'm doing or saying, Nyko, I LOVE YOU so much!...
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